I have stable internet connection (finally, starhub) (no actually finally, me, cus i finally decided to stop being lazy and plug in my internet cable) (wtever, too technical dunno how to start)………. HI. IT’S WEEK 12 ALREADY. AND I’M 2 WEEKS FROM FINALS. AKA A MONTH FROM LIBERATION.

You know that liberation? The sweet liberation you taste after A lvls. Just shake leg do nothing at home everyday? Yah that liberation. 

I think I will not be able to make it for my ddp, and will not be able to keep my second deg. I know many people are saying “aiya yiting, you should ttly take cnm. it compliments with your mkt spec. and you are soooo freaking good at designing). holy. I know. I KNOW. which is precisely why I signed up for it in the first place, right?! And I have people telling me, “eh, i dun wanna take nus biz. unless they offer me a double. nus biz is cui”. KTHXLORGOANDDIE. I have mixed feelings. But I think the end is looming. Whatever it is, I should only be thankful for the gift that God has sent to me (if.. I believe in any Gods that will be the God I’m thanking, otherwise mother nature in general). The gift of creativity. That something that has found me so many opportunities, and will continue to pave my career in future, I hope.

I’m tired already. Microblogging is so much easier. I have too much thoughts for this capacity I have to type. Maybe they are better as a part of me unspoken. Goodnight world.

And so my sister made it to the US, our family will be going to UK in July. I know I am forever on this topic but I’m super excited about it! It has been a longgg time since my family has traveled together - I think the most recent one being Beijing in IDK eons ago? Thereafter my sister went over to cambridge and I found a bf and have since been traveling with him.. I think it’s about time that we have quality family time tog ;)

I typed a super long paragraph but I decided not to post it, I shall move on to bsp so I can do my work and meet the deadlines!

Why can’t my school life revolve around projects? Nussubash is gonna end this saturday.. even though thereafter we’ll have a post-event pool party (gotta start hunting for a cool bigini) and post-event videos to make… I still feel sad. But nevermind!!!!! I’m in RAG and I think it’s prolly the last nussu project I’m gonna take up in a very long time cus I needa study! STUDY. I CAN DO THIS.

Tonight I shall brave my tears and say, “hello london, twenty-eleven” before I go to sleep.

July will be a month of happiness.

So the holidays came and went. To think of it I gave my entire holiday to nussubash. I won’t say I’ve regretted it cus I really enjoyed what I was/am doing. Designing may be a headache and a pain in the ass when you have no inspiration but looking at what you’ve produced at the end of the day.. makes everything really pay off.

My sister was back for a couple of weeks and she’ll be flying back to cambridge tonight. I’d gladly say that our r/s has improved over the years of separation. We have learnt to appreciate our parents more and the company of each other more at home. I hope she will do well for her final semester so that our whole family will fly over to cambridge and reunite over her graduation. And I hope my application for sep lands somewhere.. even though I may not be keen but well it’s worth the try and everybody I know has done it anyway.

It’s painful to leave behind the things you’ve been part of. And each minute you spend sitting in this private space of your own means a minute closer to departure.

11.1.11 11:11am I made a wish. But I forgot to wish that there will be no more goodbyes.

Today I felt awfully upset over nothing. Then I’ve come to realize that there is something missing in my life. Something I am uncertain of, something that I feel has been intercepting me from happiness. Surely I’ve been happy. I do not have to dine alone for meals. I do not have to go for size 12 for clothes. I could care less about boys because I could get one easily if I dress up. But still I feel empty. The person I am isnt who I really want to be. She isn’t living the life I want. I cannot possibly go back to the sticks cus I’ve convinced myself so hard that there’s something better than that. But now i feel that even with those something betters, I need reassurance from myself by myself. I cannot depend on others to determine my path of happiness. I want more than what I have now. And I’m possibly not being greedy. I feel awful. I could cry. I could sleep whole day. this is it.

I could sleep whole day.

Alright. Went for a flea. Had a really rough morning. Got angry at everybody. Bimbotic neighbours who were too desperate to sell everything. Earned a hundred and thirty bucks. Took a train home. Got a lift to my bf grandma’s birthday dinner. Felt very fortunate. Loved anders like hell.

Missing anders. Missing you.

I think this week I just found out how some other people are so not worth being friends with cus they don’t even try to take you seriously. Sadness unlimited but I guess it will just be they and themselves then.

So sleepy…. Nima

I’m a.. Bed potato! Feels sooo good to wake up to my iPhone and have these apps ready! Hehehe. Gawdness I’m a true procrastinator need to finish my bash designs soon! Not really looking forward though ;(

Should I cut my hair?? Yes no??!!

i’m terribly upset for quarreling and walking out on my parents once again, it reminds me of how stubborn and spoilt i have been.

I want to apologise and cry because I love them so much.